~Twist~
My fingers are all twisted up trying to learn Dream Theater’s Paradigm Shift n Universal Mind. Great technical songs. Anyone knows how to play it please giv some advice thank you. (doubt that any knows Dream Theater anyway)
~Turn~
Any of you got a nice pic of yourself or someone? With permission I can turn it into something amazing. lol. dn believe? try n see lo
Isn’t it a hassle we all go through, whether we like to admit it or not; that we are constantly trying to prove ourselves, to be looked highly upon or favoured by others.
Honestly I don’t think people care (Well, I don’t care if you drive a Benz..), but ironically we still grind and sweat to prove ourselves. Agree? Maybe it’s just me ;p.
(Honestly I drive myself nuts trying to prove myself.)
The moral of the story is don’t be obsessed with trying to gain people’s favour. It’ll never happen believe me lol ( I mean 100% ;p).
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STPM Trials are over and I’m quite satisfied (74.8%) with my results. So far so good. Got to do better, that’s what my chem teacher said.
Don’t worry .. I’ll prove myself >=D
Prove myself for you~
Writing back in my blog after a long long time. Today I just completed (half completed) a suxx chemistry experiment. Pek chek. School wasn’t very great either.
What makes school great? it’s just a worn out old building. I tell you what. It’s the people in it. Friends rocks just like in STAJ. God bless them all.
Sometimes I feel weak and helpless to do the things I want to do. To push myself to higher heights. It’s the same with me everyday. Feeling like a failure at home, school and life. Do you feel the same? If not.. Good for you! But I do hope God will give me the strength to overcome my weaknesses. Until then, I’ll try my best.
I’ve been a sad ass sometimes to my friends and family. I do hope they’ll forgive me. For I cherish every one of them even in the lowest of low.
Well, that’s it I guess. Exam coming haven’t study. I don’t feel like studying. We’ll see how it goess…
Are you living your life in the most meaningful way it can be.. Or wallowing in a pit of self-delusion, anger, depression or sadness? Are you making the best out of your life or are you just wasting the precious soul inside you away?
How precious you are?
Something to say, but I can’t say it,
There ain’t no words for it,
Something to express, but I can’t find it,
Still feel it cryin’ out inside…
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As I step into my classroom, random thoughts bombard my head. (No, it’s not because of the classroom..) They always do, like a ton of bricks resting itself on me. My time spent wondering around in the body I am in.. Is it used the way it should be?? I wonder what’s my life about.. What the future holds for a mere mortal like me. Life’s not a bed of roses apparently, it’s a cloud of smoke, and I can’t see through it. I feel I should be doing things.. things, I do not know what, but it knocks at the door of my heart.
Lub-dub
The beat of my heart.. I need to get back to reality ;p. Anyway, life’s not all that happy and jolly and go lucky and.. (bla bla) sometimes. I got alot of ‘worldly problems’ to think about, lol. But there’s still laughter, there’s still joy. I wonder how my friends are doing. How they live their form6 lives, and how they will live it further into the future..
I realize I write alot, but I don’t reveal much about my life here in my blog. Go guess the happenings of my life behind my words if u like ;p. Like CSI xD
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A melody goes on in my head,
It moves my body, moves my soul,
It accentuates my mood,
Or it soothes my spirit,
Till death only will it end,
but I hope it’ll end on a sweet note
=)
Barisan Nasional lost 5 state seats and 2/3 of parliament majority. The people have spoken. We are not blind rakyat. Now our country looks more like a democratic country compared to before.
For me, I hope DAP and PKR’s ideology does not change in the future. A government that upholds equality for everybody not depending on race and is all out against corruption, that is what we want. We just hope that they can stay true to their party’s ideology. We want clean leaders, not corrupt fools.
Equality and fairness to all!!
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Anyway, about my life (this is MY blog after all). Things are going along just fine. Ups and downs. Secret information that cannot be divulged. lolz.
What is this bitter sinking feeling?
The one they portray in songs
It lunges at an unsuspecting life
Breaking them from inside
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I find shelter in melodies
Melodies that shine
But as enchanting as a melody can be
It will always be as it is, like wine
Intoxicated the feeling doesn’t last long
As you crave for more in each passing song
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God is my everlasting melody
He comforts me in times of sorrow
Along my side He will be for eternity
Giving hope for every tomorrow
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God bless always
Everyday have to kawat. Its gets more boring day after day after day… Things I do for koku marks which I never had before..
Nothing much to say, just updating this blog for updating sake. Have a nice day then. New Year’s coming. That’s good to hear.
There was once a boy named Ben. Ben was your average teenager. Ben was average looking. Ben was well, average. A typical, normal guy whom not many can distinguish among a crowd.
He doesn’t stand out.
Though in his averageness, Ben managed to find a special sense of uniqueness and acceptance with a few close friends whom he befriended a long time ago. The good times and bad times which they shared together further strengthened their friendship in which they cherished. Through the years, although everyone went through changes, they still accepted and appreciated each other. Priceless; money couldn’t buy what they shared.
Where he is now, he tried to mix with the crowd. To fit in. And nobody can say he failed completely. The crowd is accepting. The crowd is exciting. The crowd seems like so much of fun. And he, Ben feels at home. But at times, it all seemed like an illusion. An illusion of acceptance. Why does he feel segregated from it all? Why does he feel like an outcast?
Why doesn’t he feel accepted??
And so, Ben finds comfort in his close friends. Those he felt wouldn’t just tolerate his existence but accept him as the human being he is. And they do not fail.
Still at times, Ben ponders over it all. Thinking…. thinking…. is he too average for anybody? Or is he too non-average? Is he average at all?? Oh, it was all so confusing. Is it HIS problem? HIS disease? Why is it that so many people only seem like walking shadows (or ghosts if you will) in his life? Darn it all…
He begins to think…
What if his close friends are just a stronger illusion that will fade with time??
God forbid.
Ben can’t comprehend the thought. That thought… It’s too dark, too evil for something like that to happen in his life. That small gang of buddies which is the last thing he’ll ever want to let go. But life is cruel, and only time knows what lies ahead.
And so Ben stumbles through life, and is still stumbling to this very day, with a little hope and a little optimism. Hoping the shadows will become real, and the real would not fade to shadows.
The end… not
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This is just the ‘Floating’ post in a short story form ;). Hope it’s easy to read and understand. Well, god bless u =)
It feels good to float
Float around, let things go
Let go everything that’s bothersome
I wonder if people around me float too
But not their thoughts
Rather their distance from me
It seems it’s so fragile, the closeness we feel one day
Will be just a good dream in a time not far away
As they float from me, I float from others
A never ending, torturous cycle of floating perhaps
As sad as it is, I know there are some that won’t float away
And never would I want them to
For it is this that adds wonders to life
Not the constant floating from joy that was within our grasp
But wasn’t, since we floated away from it
~ttkongtotty~
